Current mood:	pissed off
Current music:	3 Doors Down- Let Me Go

I am so lost

      I don't wanna study in UP Manila anymore. It sucks. Like hell.You know what, I told myself that one day I'm gonna like it here, but now I'm having second thoughts. Maybe I'm wrong. BIG TIME. I think I'm not gonna get along with my mates. I'm fucking serious. Actually, I'm mad pissed at the moment. I was like, I wish I had gone to St. Paul back in high school or something. Well, not really... I don't actually wanna go to an all girls' school, and I don't like the idea of having to see "girly-girls" everyday. For four straight years. And besides, my mom's from an all girls' school starting from kindergarten up to high school and she told me that she was really culture-shocked when she moved on to college. Shit. because of a fucken alien's post my every perspective about this sorta things has gone from bad- to terribly bad. Fuck.

      Ayoko na dito... I mean it... Most probably I'm going to try everything just to get outta this hell and move to Diliman next year or as early as possible. Aaarrrgghh!! I wish I took the ACET like what my mom told me earlier this year. Putang-ina, ito mga napapala ng tamad. Buict! And besides, every SINGLE one of my friends were like, "When they see on your resume that you're a graduate of UP, they're going to hire you immediately!" Bakit? Hindi ba ganun kung graduate ka ng Ateneo or UST? I mean, one time, when I passed by the Job section of the paper, nabasa ko, "only graduates of UP, ADMU, UST and DLSU will be blah blah blah..." Leche naman 'to o.. Na-pressure lang yata ako e... If ever I would be able to transfer to Diliman, I would shift na lang to Eco or Buss. Mgmt... But if I can't, I'm not gonna take law like what I told everyone yesterday during Soc. Sci., I'm going to US to take masterals since my grandma's sister has a grad school there. And she said that she would help me if ever I would want to study there. Fuck you, boy. Fuck you...

Okay, I don't know what's gotten into me, but I'm gonna let everything out in the open right now. First thing's first...

      I'M NOT GONNA FUCKING JOIN ANY FRATERNITY BECAUSE I FUCKING THINK IT'LL JUST FUCKING RUIN MY LIFE. SO STOP FUCKING PRODING ME TO FUCKING JOIN BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE FUCKING IN IT ANYMORE. SO EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE GONNA FUCKING THREAT ME WELL I'M FUCKING TELLIN YOU THIS MISTER, I AIN'T FUCKING AFRAID TO DIE! YOU FUCKEN GOT IT? GOOD.

      Next. I want to go to Eastwood but I just realized that I'm kinda broke. And nahihiya na ako of asking money from my parents all the time. 3sa's right, we have to bring baon na to school (haha) to save money. The only way I would be able to go there is if my mom would go. I mean, I could ask them to drop me off but what's the use of going there if i dun have any moolah? Buti pa si Moha, laging nandun! haha!Damnit.

      Haha, this one's too shallow- I still don't know what rubbershoes to buy. I saw someone kasi in our block wearing the same pair of skechers that I got. And hear this one: Hers is brand new while yung akin sobrang luma na! Ha! And my mom doesn't like the flops from Havaianas, hinde raw durable.. hehe/// anyways, it's their money naman... No me estoy quejando... haha

      I can't wait for July... ang tagaL!!! Paul's coming home kasi (raw!!! Dakilang barbero!) and I'm still hoping that he would bring back a Real Madrid FC or Chelsea FC jacket... hehe.. Screw all the fans of Arsenal... specially Paul! wahaha!!! Kidding!

      I figured out that I'm not gonna hang out that much with my blockmates because... wala lang! nag-iinarte lang ako! hehe! no, I dunno.. It feels like I don't fit in or something... But I was always told na you don't necessarily need to fit in pero, hai, peer pressure... Dami ngang taga- Science high school, pero I feel so dumb and stupid around them! Buti pa sa orgcom, they look so happy... :'(  Sana yun na lang kinuha ko. Luis and Moha kasi nandun e. And another one, they're taking Spanish and Theology pa! I'll entrust myself to my grandma na lang since she speaks Spanish and French naman... But, she's like, old already... I think she forgot na rin yun... Hai... I hope I'll learn something from the books at home...

      You know that Destiny's Child song 'Cater 2 U'? Grabe lagi ko na lang pinapakinggan kainis... It's like on impulse, pag tapos na yung song, I'll click 'play' ule. I don't like the lyrics pa naman... I hate guys... I hate them!!!

      As you all know I'm a pretty bad soccer player... Haha, mind you, I'm not gonna stop practicing til I'm one hell of a player! So to all of those who think I'm not gonna do it, well wait for me... One day, I'm gonna make it to WWLFC! Ohmy! Andrea wake up!!! You're talking rubbish! Ha! I'm gonna practice and practice... Because practice makes perfect. But nobody's perfect. So why practice? ANG CORNY!!! haha!!! I miss Donnie!!! Hehehe!

      BTW! Kyan Douglas and Thom are coming! Yeah! Here! But of course I wouldn't go. Nobody watches Queer Eye here except yours truly. Crush ko pa naman si Kyan... haha.. ;)

     Rineformat yung computer two weeks ago... and YM pa lang nado2wnlaod ko... so sad... MSNM and AIM pa... damnit

     Three days at home. Broke. With nothing to do. I ran out of Gouache paint, so...? Hmmm... I'm too lazy to organize my room, so you know what I mean... I'll buy na lang siguro that candy mag tomorrow. Kainis si Moha ayaw kasi bumili, I barely read local mags pa naman... So yeah this is it... Because of a silly post of that guy... Screw you...

     NoOooOOoo... The Beatles' song Theresa kept on singing yesterday's driving me mad... haha...

I'm bad, I'm sad. Someone broke my heart, now I don't know where to start. HELP ME.